Tuesday, October 26, 2010

A climbing we will go!

So the newest thing in the Adkinson house is climbing! Not just your ordinary climbing im talking climbing harness and repelling! Its crazy! Now Bryson is just obsessed with this climbing thing.
He is a boy for sure! While driving down the interstate he saw the big mountain side and said I sure wish I could climb that! David of course replied by saying me too buddy. Oh me now I am not so sure about all this because to me it seems so dangerous even though David has asked all the questions and taken all the precautionary measures possible it still worries me a tad.
All in all its great bonding time with David and the kids, its exercise, and they get to experience God's wonderful creation!
P.S. Bella only tried it out one time she will not be doing any climbing any time soon LOL! Bailee enjoys it but will have to save her money to buy her own harness and let me just say that wont be happening anytime soon, the girl couldnt even hold on to her tooth fairy money! By the way there is a funny story behind all that I should share maybe next time! :0)

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Hard to accept!

This week it has been super busy the kids are on fall break but instead of relaxing we have had a ton of things to do. Although I'm thankful that they are out of school and we can get all these things done I would also like to just hang out and have fun with the kiddo's.
Today Bailee had to go to the dentist well she was having a tooth pulled and an orthodontic appliance piece put in so we were there for almost 2 hours.
Normally I wouldn't mind having to wait I got a grocery list done, I forgot my phone that was a real bummer. But anyway it is a Pediatric Dentist Office and sometimes that can be an annoying place! Today it wasn't the kids that were bothering me it was the parents. Not that they were doing anything wrong it was just that one was pregnant and one had a 3 month old every family that was there had 4 kids and I just could not quit thinking about how I am suppose to be pregnant right now.
I thought I was over all of this with the miscarriage but apparently I'm not because I just wanted to run out of that place. I felt almost envious even though I know that is wrong. How do you get past that feeling??
Once we left it was better I guess because it wasn't right in my face. I just hope that with every week things will get better and I'm not stuck in a waiting room with pregnant women!

Sunday, October 10, 2010

The Lord gives and takes away!

This post is a painful post to write but it is also a healing process. An unexpected pregnancy brought about some worries but then joy. I had some complications early on but after being placed on medication to help a hormone level I thought things would go as planned.
Last Tuesday October 5th I went to the doctor because of some problems and an ultrasound showed that their was nothing in my uterus. Very sad moment. The doctor told me I had a 50/50 chance that I was still pregnant. Blood work confirmed that the pregnancy was over.
I know that the Lord works all things for the good but it is still a very painful process to loose something that you already love.
It has been a ruff week and I am still dealing with all the emotional issues that go along with the miscarriage. It was also very hard because I had already told the kids that I was going to have another baby and they were all very excited and Bailee even cried when I told her what had happened. That in itself was just as hard to see your 6 and a half year old crying and understanding what had happened.
My son on the other hand asked what I now had in my tummy? A little laughter in the midst of pain is always helpful. But it has almost been a week, today has been an emotional day but I know with each passing day it will get better!